today is soccer day!

i have 2 matches in a row today.. no joke. gonna be shagged man.. morning's match with vofm wasnt exactly satisfactory.. hope this evening's game would be better man... anyway today is the noob's birthday, happy birthday ya? hope we do get what you want. 50% off man! haha.

anyway out of the soccer issue, i was really pissed off yesterday night.. couldnt find some things that were left to me by my loved ones.. still dont know where is it though.. sure hope i'd find it in time to come.. and to add on, i had a weird dream last night.. really weird.


would it make you happier to know i still do miss you?

1:37 PM

been two weeks since i last doodled something here..
im finally back to ATI, back to my parent unit after that 2 fruitful weeks @ plc astw.
so happy the bomb is finally defused. right peck? haha.

we're outfield for the whole week basically man.. this whole week was basic driving for the trainees. i also met my crew for the first time since they were posted here. it was fun teaching, instructing. i must admit im liking my job.. i only hate the regimental part seriously. today i was telling my buddy.. i've less than 4 mths left.. i counted the bookouts too. its only around 10 odd more bookouts, not including the confinements and the off-in-lieus in taiwan. is that fast or what?

i used to really wish i'd ord soon.. but now.. its different.. im starting to think i'd miss this place as soon as i ord. i dont know why.. maybe its the people in tcc.. maybe its the person who left me. maybe its because i dont have much to look forward too these days.. i dont know man. but i just want to be happy. thats all i want. and i think im starting to achieve that..

one word sums it all. Effort.


i often tell myself. give me one more chance and i'll do it well.
but just too bad we dont always get second chances.

8:40 PM

how BAD can this sunday get?

hai..

8:55 PM

come out come out wherever you are...

i dont wanna play hide and seek anymore...

10:02 PM

"There is no right or wrong, just how right to you, and how wrong to him."

i'd like to start with this quote coming from my buddy, peck. dont know where the hell he got it from, but it makes a hell lot of sense to me. everybody makes mistakes, right? including you reading this. but how do you define a mistake? is there a certain standard or benchmark in judging this. arguable. a mistake to you, might start from overpowering emotions or a moment of folly. but mistakes, unfortunately, are mostly irreversible. well. myself, made a hell lots of mistakes. alot of bad decisions as well. i regret, but i guess i've to take it strongly and reconsider the path ahead again..

keep moving on, thats the only way i thought.

daddy asked me the other day, "do you find yourself leading a fortunate, average or a bad life". i answered, "average loh", "life's not too bad, neither is it really good". so he asked me. "how could i make your life a fortunate one". then i said something really funny, "when i get my pay every 10th of the month and i dont have to fork out anything to have anything i want :)". and he goes "@!$^@*&(#%^@".
anyway he said something really true la.. in life, its all about "contentment". a person is rich if he is contented. however, on the other hand, if a person is never contented, he will never think that he is rich. so which is happier? being contented or not? i'd choose to be happy.

other than money matters, alot of problems pple faced also involve matters of the heart. more often than not, people often make mistakes due to r/s problems.. so, because of money also make mistake, because of r/s also make mistake then how?

dont ask me. because i made hell too many of mistakes already.
sorry, i cant help you.




Just So You Know

1:50 PM

"be the change you want to see in your world"

"authority does not make you a leader, it gives you the opportunity to be one"

"war starts as you will, but it doesnt end as you please"

its a good friday morning, went for an early run and back, managed to catch "Home Of the Brave" on dvd. i thought that the show was really good. it was about this group of US marines who were part of the cohort in baghdad during the iraq war.. the show really presented how harsh the conditions were in the war there.. and how life has changed so much after the marines finally returned to their neighbourhood. by then, everything is so different.. life has changed, people around them have changed. girlfriends left, wives divorced, families broken, kids neglected... the way people look at you, its so different too. worse still. people give you weird stares for your missing arms/legs. and ask yourself that question, in the first place, how did you end up like that? its all because you're defending them. i personally feel its really unfair.. these people work so hard to defend your country, yet people around them, not only do not appreciate their hardwork, they left them, in pain.. i think this issue is really subjective.. but it'd be a nice show to watch if you have the time i guess...

11:59 AM