This is it. last post before i fly.

yesterday was a day well spent out with kelven, ron and my buddy himself. caught "secret" and i thought it was a much better jay chou show, compared to the others. the sad love story and all, really pretty interesting. its just sad how some others could only see the ones they love that little time each day, yet they cherish it. and the irony of it all, when those more fortunate like myself, fail to treasure relationships. sigh.

881 wasnt a bad show either i must say, mum got me to go catch it with her the other day, and i was pretty impressed. i must admit im normally a anti-singapore-made show kinda person, but this is pretty good. this royston tan guy. kudos! and my mum cried watching! what power it had huh. haha. not to mention it was really funny as well!!

and so tonight i depart. will be back 5 weeks later. after which, the word "ord" would come swiftly! so guys! wait for me to come back, then we can go "chiong" every night and the canoeing all those stuff.

and you there.. take care ya?

1:55 PM

12:48 PM

im back, and its the last weekend here. i'll be back, but only in oct of course.


an unexpected visit to the clubbing scene, led to a surprising reunion of close friends, which brought the unprecedent chaos..

11:46 AM

11:06 AM

You can put the blame on me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect
I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done

I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me


You can put the blame on me...
You can put the blame on me.


and i'd not give you anymore problems.

7:25 PM

maybe its not a bad idea to leave sooner..

5:49 PM

have you..

have you ever thought everything was going right, till one day, you realized it is not all along.

have you ever felt that you were always in the wrong, no matter what you do.

have you ever wanted something so much, that when its finally yours, you dont feel satisfied at all?

have you ever felt so bored, everything seems so wrong.

have you ever wanted to do something so badly, yet in the end, it turns out all wrong.

have you ever felt so irritated, the slightest of disturbances sets you ablaze.

have you ever wanted to grow up so much, yet when you're all grown up, you wanna be a kid again.

lastly, have you ever felt like there's so many things to blog about, but when you actually want to blog, you hit a blogger's block? heh. i did for this one.

so many questions, so many types of answers. random thoughts. (:

food for thought.

this was what i drafted in 2005, posted only now

5:00 PM

whoa. just got home.

shagged man! talk about 3 days of crew drills! but thank god its over.. realised i havent have much time for myself left for the next few weeks.. this weekend wuld be the last before i embark on my outfield trgs including the weekends burnt and not to forget i have my duties to do too. have this splitting headache on the train back which forced me to cab home after i alight. falling sick easily these days.. but heck ah, enjoy soccer tmr first.


for the good of us. yea

11:13 PM